Lilian Lynn

dusts off journal

2002-10-14T03:48:07Z

hell it's been a while since i've updated...a lotta stuff has happened and stuff...lol. my life has taken a few new turns and i'm becoming a little overwhelmed. i'm causing myself to become overwhelmed and i like that feeling of importance sometimes but i'm getting like...stressed unnecessarily.

www.geocities.com/avrilcryingoutloud/
www.geocities.com/lpchesterbennington/
www.geocities.com/kelly_momentlikethis/
www.geocities.com/xtina_aguilera_dirrty/
www.geocities.com/nsync_story_site/

those are all the sites that i'm working on. some more than others but still, it's an odd amount of work that i've put on myself, and then theres my lovely education. did i ever say that i've always hated school? i have strong beliefs and i just...dont see the point of knowing a quadratic equation.

hmm interesting

2002-09-04T05:11:38Z

I found this in Teeya's journal so I'm gonna do it in mine!

It's a Sk8er Boi Adlib that I did...muahahaha

He was a boy, she was a stripper
Can I make it any more obvious?
He was a punk, she ditzes out
What more can I say?
He wanted her, she'd never tell,
Secretly she wanted him as well
But all of her friends stuck up thier penis's ,
they had a problem with his hottly clothes.

He was a sk8er boi, she said DUUUUDE
He wasn't Ugly enough for her
She had a pet snake , but her head was up in space
She needed to washing the kitchen floor

264 years from now, she sits at home,
Feeding the snake , she's fucking pissed off
She turns on TV, guess who she sees?
Sk8er boi rockin' up chestertown .
She calls up her friends, they already know,
and they've all got tickets to see his show
She tags along, runs in the crowd
looks up at the CHESTER look-a-like that she turned down

He was a sk8er boi, she said DUUUUDE
He wasn't Ugly enough for her
Now he's a superstar, slammin' on his guitar
Does her pretty face see what he's worth?

Hmmm!

2002-09-03T03:43:04Z

I'm sitting in front of a computer at Kristi's house. I'm also watching Bad Boys. At one time in my life, it was my favorite movie, but I haven't seen it in a while so it's not really anymore.

I've worked twelve hours so far, so that means 120 dollars. I'm definitely going to be working my ass off tonight and now tomorrow so I'm gonna be getting paid some good money.

I'm also going to be working on my website tonight...! That'll be good fun. I need to update it more often...! Lol.

This isn't going to be much of a journal update, I just wanted to know that I'm alive. I'M ALIVE! :)

Luv yas til the end o' time...lmfao,
Umm...I ran outta nicknames...

Hola people... :)

2002-08-31T05:37:15Z

Once again I want to specify that my journal is not a cat fight arena, lol.

I had a GREAT time at the Blues Festival. It was awesome, it's amazing how beautifully instruments can be played. Albert Cummings opened the whole thing and he rocked. He only plays a few shows and we were special enough to get him for one of the shows. The Thunderbirds played after him and they rocked as well. They got the crowd into it and it was fun. The main dude was awesome at the harmonica. After them was Susan Tideski or something like that. Don't know how to spell the last name. For being the only woman on the whole tour, I give her props for doing well. She had the smallest voice when she talked and then she belted out so many songs, and she was awesome at the guitar.

THEN, THE AMAZING B.B. KING CAME OUT! Dun dun duh! This dude was hilarious. The whole time he was on stage he had the crowd in stitches. He's 76 years old, and he's been doing this stuff for like his whole life. He really impressed me, and his guitar skills were amazing. He played a few songs that I knew and overall he rocked. For an old guy, he did really really good, lol.

I bought a sticker from the Merchandise stand, and that's weird, cuz it's not my type of music. I enjoyed every aspect of the concert though. I'd go a million times if given the chance. It was great...can I stress that enough?

I'm eating Reese's Pieces...they're pretty good. Crunchy...mmm! I'm into the Reese's stuff lately...WEIRD?! I'm also drinking a Mountain Dew Code Red...that was probably a surprise.

Much Love...
Bean...muahhahahha

The VMAs...MY thoughts.

2002-08-30T08:02:46Z

Let's start off with the preshow.
Ludacris...his performance was alrightish. I wasn't really paying attention too much, I was serving birthday cake.
When Avril came on, she gave the performances she always gives, it wasn't really anything special. BUT it did piss me off a lot when the damn fags of MTV turned Sk8er Boi off to be all like...commercailatized.
Did anyone else notice that Evan was wearing thirty bracelets...that I've seen Avril wear before?
Linkin Park on the red carpet being interviewed: Chester was wearing Justin Timberlake's favorite hat. I was appalled by that, but it was...cute in a way. The boy looked better with it on, let's put it that way. I don't like how the top of his head shines when he shaves it. It seems like he's fifty years old.
Mike Shinoda, cute as hell. I'm more partial to Chester but Mike can look better with a shaved head. They matched...almost.
Brad fucking looks like a wannabe Justin Timberlake with the fro nowadays.
Phoenix...FUCK the man is growing his hair too. He's gay so it's alright.
Rob...he looked nice, but he had a hat on so I couldn't tell if he was growing his hair out too.
Joe/Mr. Hahn...looked basically the same. Not much to it.

When Christina Aguilera came on the screen, I covered my eyes and started having convulsions. Isn't there a law against indecent exposure? She was exposing a LOT and her fucking skirt...it wasn't a skirt. I think it was a shoelace. It was scary as all hell and she is SO much worse than Justin when it comes to talking in ebonics. It's becoming annoying.

Britney looked good. She wasn't a slut! (Christina did) and her outfit was cute. I liked how she faked wanting to see Justin's performance too, that was funny.

NSYNC - Chris looked like hell, Jc looked better than normal, and Joey looked oddly cute. I like him clean shaven for some reason.

On to the main show.

The opening performance by Jimmy Fallon was funny. I was holding my tummy at a few points and then Chester came on the screen mouthing 'That's some funny shit' and I ran to go throw up because he wasn't wearing the hat to cover his lack of hair.
My choice performance of the main performance was probably Dave Matthews. It was lame in the sense of...the fat guy tackled him, but it was funny the way he tried to imitate his voice...Didn't really work.

Other than that, I didn't like Jimmy Fallon at ALL. He didn't make me laugh once after that. Teeya's right, bring back Chris Rock. He's a stand up comedian...Jimmy is an actor, given lines and he recites them and makes them sound somewhat funny.

I enjoyed it when Linkin Park won the first award they were nominated for. I got up, screamed and yelled in happiness...and by coincedence, I am wearing my LP shirt...so it was all good.

Avril won! Woohoo...she didn't give much of a speech though. Before she became famous, the child didn't know who or what MTV was. An when she presented with Lisa Marie, she seemed like she didn't want to be up there. The fake exictement for Pink was funny too. Avril despises Pink...

In the same way Christina and Eminem don't like each other. I LAUGHED my ass off when she was like "hmm, interesting...EMINEM, WITHOUT ME!" it looked like the man wasn't going to stand up when she said his name. It was friggen hilarious the way he was like...'yeah thanks whatever' to her. It was QUITE humurous the way he was booed as well. I enjoyed wallowing in that. Eminem threw a good performance...I liked it.

Mike and Chester...and Sonny and Wuv. They presented together...it was fun and stuff. Best Hip-Hop award. J-Lo won, Chester was checking her out, and I was infuriated. AS I SHOULD BE! Lol, I'm over it now though. Chester was using his big boy voice up there I noticed. His voice isn't usually as deep as it was...haha.

Michael Jackson...he's back to his old outfits. When Britney said his name, I thought it was going to turn into a bad parody or something, BUT it was actually him so I was like...oh...yay.

When TLC went up on stage, and they were sobby, I shed a tear. It was hard to see them stand up there and cry, it always sucks when they go up there and cry. Carson seemed...SO sympathetic, quick to announce the nominees of the next award.

Shakira's performance was pretty cool with the drums. I liked it, but she was trying TOO hard to be rockish. She's not rock, nor punk, so she shouldn't try to be either. Almost in the sense of Avril, although...Avril at least dresses like a punk.

Sheryl Crow was cool...but boring.

I was cheering for Bruce Springsteen at the end of his performance...BECAUSE IT WAS OVER. Stupid old guys...think they're cool.

When Brittany Murphy and Anthony Keidis presented, I got scared...and cringed. Brittany Murphy looks like Sarah Michelle...to ME! Not saying y'all agree, but when they smile, it's like weird.

The Lance parody was lame. It didn't seem like Lance in any way shape or form. I thought Jimmy Fallon needed to be shot at that point.

Brandy's boobs were nastily big. For having a baby...I understand but DAMN...they were large. I betcha Justin was drooling as he started the song.

Justin's performance was somewhat TIGHT but it was also lame. He can dance, and all that jazz. BUT he pulled a Britney Spears on us. The song was playing too loud for us to hear Justin too well. HMPH! I don't like it when that happens. It made the performance suck to me.

When Michelle Branch accepted viewer's choice, it pissed me off how she barely thanked the fans. She wouldn't have been up there if it weren't for the fans. AND the way she said she was "drunker than peenk" *that's the way she said it* was lame. She's too young and it was a lame joke. The perk of Michelle was her outfit and her fake hair. It looked cute.

When Guns n Roses came out, I was like...HHAAAHAHAHA! COOL MAN! Axl Rose looks cool nowadays...I thought so anyway. The buckethead was funny.

That's about all of my thoughts that I can remember about the VMAs for now. It was fun to watch, but it would have been better if the Olsen twins weren't mentioned every two seconds and if Jimmy Fallon had like...fallen down on accident.

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As for a regular journal update. I didn't do much today. My uncle Christopher had a birthday party that I attended, since it was at my house and everything. I made the birthday cake, and ... signed a card. That was fun.

I'm looking forward to the Blues Festival tomorrow. Although Blue's not my cup of tea, I'm looking forward to hearing that kind of music. It's a nice thing once in a while.

Chester is still my baby, although he's not as visually appealing as he was a little while ago. I love him to death, past the looks, and amazingly, I still find the man sexy. He's got a sexy aura around him, and it's not fading, nor will it ever. The vibe of sexiness makes me love the boy more than I should. I love Chester Charles Bennington. I LOVE HIM.

Hugs and Kisses...? XoXoXo
Cleo *one of the various nicknames I've accquired in my life*

Lookie...

2002-08-28T19:18:55Z

Who's your inner singer-songwriter?

Take the quiz!

I'm at Kristi's house...!

2002-08-28T19:10:19Z

I just thought that I would update my journal because...I'm in a different place and I wanna write in here that I made a lot of money. I made a hundred dollars in one day. I still can't get over it. I didn't think that it was possible that things like that happened but it's pretty damn cool that things like that DO happen.

I'm listening to Chester's SEXY Screaming! Yes, that needed to be capitalized, so don't ask. :) Crawling's on so...you know the deal. I downloaded wayyyy too many songs today on her computer. But they're easily deleted...the strangest one I've downloaded was probably Korn 'Make Me Bad' so I guess I'm not going completly insane. I've been working my ass off and I still haven't gotten any sleep...lol. It's 3:09 in the afternoon and I STILL haven't slept. I find that not a big surprise...but it's still strange. Usually I'm just waking up right about now...haha.

I'm going to leave now...Bye Bye!
Blah deeeee blah, you know who it is.

I just ate a bowl of Reese's Puffs. Yum...

2002-08-27T01:58:51Z

Hello Journal readers,

What's up? How's life been for you all? Good I could hope. I just ate the best cereal in the world to me right now. I'm addicted to it. Reese's Puffs own you! Bow down!

Not too much happened today. I got a few new affiliates for my site so that was cool. I still need to start promoting it, doing all that good stuff. I actually need to finish the damn thing first...that would be an idea. Haha. I should probably continue writing the story as well. I'm sort of getting in the mood for it so it's all good. Justin...hott. Juju Candy! Hahahahaha.

I'm sorta bored right now...mainly the reason I'm updating this journal. Lol, but it's quite alright. I NEED to write, and I need to cement that into my mind. **NEED TO WRITE, NEED TO WRITE**

My mouth tastes bad, I need to brush my teeth again. Reese's Puffs leave a nasty taste in your mouth. But they're good so...it's worth it I guess. I need a Mountain Dew Code Red too...and I need a million dollars.

LOL.... bye bye then.

I have a major headache.

2002-08-26T05:41:06Z

I just ate a whole cool whip container of pasta salad. Aunt Kathy makes pasta salad like no other; her pasta salad OWNS. I had two bowls of it when I was at the *family get together* and she realized, WOW, she likes it, so she gave me some to bring home with me. I thanked her, and Aunt Kathy is now queen. :)

Other than that, I have quite the headache. I don't know why, I just do. I wish I had a yogurt to eat, Strawberry Cheesecake would really be nice right now. My mother said that she didn't think I ate it anymore. I fixed that thought in a second, and hopefully when she goes shopping she'll get me some.

For some unknown reason, I made a banner for my Chester Story tonight. I just found that odd and completely out of the blue that I did that, but it looks cool so I guess it wasn't absolutely pointless.

I'm completely freezing and I was told recently that the house is hotter than it ever has been. I'm wearing a hoodie and two shirts, and yet I'm still feeling like and ice cube. I've been known to be a cold natured person, but damn...this is going too far! Ha ha.

Something was brought to my attention today that sort of got me confused but I understand it. If that made no sense, read on.

I was told that I wasn't being myself around certain people in which I should feel completely comfortable around. I was given certain reasons for this and although they were proven wrong and I was right in defending myself, I wonder if I truly give off a weird vibe. Some days, I like people, some days I don't. I am a very fickle person and I am known to be one. Some days I'm against Avril Lavigne *as a person* and some days I think 'Wow, she's cool'. Most of the time I don't like her as a person because during interviews she can seem stuck up and shit. It's not my place to judge, but it is my place to form an opinion.

I used to like Britney Spears last year. I listened to her music a lot and a few people actually thought I liked her more than NSYNC...my choice group at the time. I didn't like BRITNEY, I just liked the image of her. Basically her pretty face and her music. I think she's a whore and a bitch. Most of the time I couldn't give if she dropped off the planet if you ask me...but there were days that I liked to post little pictures of her on the wall and be like 'Wow, she's pretty'. In all actuality, I find her to be a skank who sells herself for money. We're talking about a very well paid stripper here.

My choice group as of right now, is Linkin Park. They have been for quite a while and I don't see that stopping for a long time. Once again I fell for the one with the voice without knowing which one it was. That often happens to me by the way... I figured out it was the freak blonde one, and I thought it was cute how he looked tiny in the Crawling video. That was the main reason I started liking the boy. I grew VERY attracted to him, and I found out his name was Chester. Not the best name in the book, but it's damn cute plastered onto him.

From the moment I heard the album, I loved them. I may have been scared when Crawling came out, because that video was mest up...but HEY, it's cool to me now. Linkin Park owns, they rock, and they're a damn good band. I'll love them til the end.

My headache has not ceased and it's pissing me off because it's too late to bug my nana for her aspirin. I hate having headaches, they hurt and they're pointless. If Chester walked into my room and told me he was in love with me, and he told me it was because I was special enough to have a headache, DAMN, I'd love this headache. Since that's not the case, fuck headaches, they suck major ass.

Even though it's only 1:32 a.m. I might consider going to bed. So you all have a good day, good night, or whatever it is when you're reading this.

I'll catch ya later.
Peanut. *my father calls me that...*

Random thought: I'm glad I have a friend who tells me whats on her mind. I'll try and fix anything I'm doing wrong, because I don't want you to be mad or anything again. It sucks when you're mad, life's good when we're all happy cheery.

There's something wrong with me....

2002-08-24T14:28:11Z

I need to gather up a life somewhere and use it. I'm actually listening to My December...and fantasizing about a life with Chester Bennington. I NEED to stop thinking about the boi. He may be something special, but...I'm specialer? Not really, he's definitely worth thinking about, but I should probably stop huh? Yeah, I thought so.

I'm contemplating writing an NSYNC story for a friend to post on her NSYNC Story website. I've started it, but I'm not into it. I mean, Justin's HOTT and everything, but it's hard to make believe a gay man is straight and tell a story about the ups and downs of a relationship with him. I have this whole thing planned and Chapter 1 is almost done, but I'm not sure if I can finish the 23 chapters that I have planned out so far. If anything, I want to write something that doesn't have to do with that certain JuJu boi. I might just have to though, because I have nothing better to do.

I should probably braid my hair today. I want to do it in a zillion braids, though it may take all friggen day, there's nothing else better to do anyway. (*Avril - My World*)

I'm drinking Canada Dry ginger ale. It's pretty good, but I'm not sick, so it's weird to be drinking it. I only drink ginger ale when I'm sick. It's supposed to help settle your stomach or something like that...so it's sorta weird.

I like this LiveJournal thing...it's fun. I like being able to type out my feelings. It's even better than writing it out in a journal.

God Bless and Later Dayz,
Lili

Since I know how to use this thing...

2002-08-24T08:23:27Z

I'll write what I need to say. Today was boring as usual, just like my other days of the week. Tomorrow I'll be able to go to my Uncle's house and have fun I guess. My father is making me visit with everyone in the family. Fun huh? It's alright though, because I like my family; sometimes.

Anyway, I updated my website a lot today, and I guess that was fun. I enjoy working on my website. It allows me something to do all day during the summer. I have a job, but it doesn't consume enough time, so I'm stuck with nothing to do on weekdays.

I love Chester Bennington. I don't care that I do either, because I know it's never going to stop, no matter how much it probably should.

Forever and all that JUNK,
Lili

My first entry

2002-08-24T07:14:46Z

Hey what's up everyone who may or may not be reading this. This is my first entry, and well, it's cool that I now have a LiveJournal account. I've been wanting one for a while but I never could manage to get my hands on a code. Now that I have, I'm in business. So umm, since this is the first one, I'll be telling you about me I guess. I'm a fan of Linkin Park more so than everything right now. I may seem like I like Avril more, but it's not really the case.

My name is Lili to some people, to others it's Brittany. It just depends on how well you know me or how much information I want to give out to you. Lol, yes, I know I'm a psycho, or seem like it anyway.

As this Live Journal goes on and on, you'll learn more about me. For now, just call me Lil, cuz thats the name I go by.

Forever and Always,
Lil